I Love You

dad….give me the strength to be strong…..

Dad…..give the strength to make you proud…

I’ll see you again….I want you to smile…

Dad…..I miss you…..I’m in pain, however, you would want me to be your heart and soul…

I’ll figure it out…I just need time…..bring me peace… 


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Dad….I miss you….

Dad died 30 days ago….I miss him terribly…..I live minute to minute……I’m not sure what the new norm is for me…..I miss his voice, his laughter, his soothing support, his face and holding his hand.  He always made me feel so safe.  People tell me I can still talk to him and, I do….I just want to hear him answer.  I look out at the street and try and figure out how to live….the houses on the streets don’t seem the same, the beach looks lazy, television is my best friend.  My family looks at the black and white of life….I have difficulty with that reality. 

Dad, I love you…..we will have the luck of the Irish today…

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Kardashian Krazy

my dad passed away recently….I’m still trying to find my way….

I turn on the tv and see $100 million contracts going to the kardashians…..football players securing $200 

Million contracts……….the excess of “The Real Housewives of everywhere “…….

I then turn on the news and see the poverty of our country…..children losing their lives in Syria….the 

Silliness of Hilary…..

Take a minute to breathe…..look at the trees….be thankful for every minute of the day….cherish your memories…

Eliminate the excess….means nothing…..

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Sweet Punter – I Love you Dad!  

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Glider Pilot Dad

Dad died last week….he was 97….his life amazing…
I’m so sad….I miss him so much…..
I miss our conversations….his love of life….
He will miss his first great grandchild….
He wanted to vote for Hilary Clinton…..go dad!
No one prepares you for the loss of a loved one….
Life goes on but it has stopped for me….
For those of you who say he was 97….well, he was, however, he had the mind and body of a man in his seventies…
</His discipline was that of a young man…
He was my pal, my heroe, my dad….
I hope it will get better….


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Dad, thank you for being my hero…
Dad, thank you for being my strength…
Dad, thank you for giving me the opportunity to travel the world…
Dad, thank you for teaching me the future is our strength, never look back…
Dad, thank you for being an amazing glider pilot….
Dad, thank you for being proud of me throughout my career…
Dad, I remember you in your pilot’s uniform running through the door to hug us when you returned from an assignment…
Dad, thank you for being the creative genius who made a difference in so many lives…
Dad, thank you for the spirituality you brought to our home…
Dad, I loved the dollar pancakes you made for us after church….
Dad, thank you for your good looks….
Dad, thank you, thank you
Dad, make hospice go away and come back to me..


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Brian Williams

He made a mistake…
The days of Walter Cronkite are long gone…
He cares about our men and women in combat…
He made a mistake…
Newsreaders are not the backbone of our society…
We make our own judgements…


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Art and Community

Originally posted on AlvaradoFrazier:

Heart of the Sea by Ray Ferrer

While reading a favorite blogger’s post “Emotion on Canvas,” this image caught my attention. Truthfully, all of Ray Ferrer’s artwork catches my attention.

The majesty of the ship, shrouded in the indigo shadows of night and ocean, seemed ominous. The words in the January 26th post were more forbidding:

Hi Friends and Fans of Ray! This is his wife, Rhian Ferrer….
Tuesday morning I found Ray in bed having a seizure (he has never had one before) I brought him to the hospital and he is stable but has a massive baseball sized tumor in/on his brain.  He will be undergoing surgeries, radiation and chemo therapy in the upcoming months.

This young artist and his wife are now in for the fight of their lives. But fighters they are, as evidenced by Rhian’s post, yesterday:

As Ray deals with the hard news of…

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Dad is with hospice now…..so sad……didn’t think it would happen to is or him….
I love u dad….


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Help Raise Awareness for Ray

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Hey Gang,

I just wanted to share a thank you note I received from Ray’s wife, Rhian. Thanks for the support. Visit his site, give whatever you can and keep him and his family in your prayers.

Remember, every little bit counts.

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Thank you all for the kind wishes and thoughts as we battle this beast together.

I am Rhian, Ray’s wife, and I created a GoFundMe page for Ray as we battle this baseball-sized brain tumor.  Please have a look and share if possible.  He is offering artwork and other great gifts through this site and through his Etsy.  Links are in the FundMe page.


Please if you can at least share out on all social media and help raise awareness.

Thank you so much!!


Ray Ferrer – Artist
Website / Blog (60,000+ followers): http://www.ArtistRay.com
Twitter: https://twitter.com/Ray_Artist
Facebook: http://www.facebook.com/urbanwallart
Instagram:  http://instagram.com/artist_rayferrer

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