Category Archives: health

Ugly or Pretty Grief

i am dealing with the ugliness of grief as my dad recently died.  The dark side of grief leaves you empty, alone, feeling as if you are crazy and suicidal.  The pretty side of grief allows you to talk with … Continue reading

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I Love You

dad….give me the strength to be strong….. Dad…..give the strength to make you proud… I’ll see you again….I want you to smile… Dad…..I miss you…..I’m in pain, however, you would want me to be your heart and soul… I’ll figure … Continue reading

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Dad

Dad, thank you for being my hero… Dad, thank you for being my strength… Dad, thank you for giving me the opportunity to travel the world… Dad, thank you for teaching me the future is our strength, never look back… … Continue reading

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Paradise …yes, Hawaii!

I was going to write my daily thoughts on caregiving,however, I couldn’t …..other thoughts are preoccupying my day.. I’m sooo saddened to see the destruction from the lava flow in Hawaii…. I grew up in Hawaii …the freedom of paradise … Continue reading

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I wanna hold your hand!

role reversal is a blessing and a bitch.. I get to hold my dad’s hand every day as I ease him through the day… I remember the safety I felt as he held my hand growing up… he held my … Continue reading

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DD or Starbuck’s

time for a break… not going to happen… sweetmelissa is going to visit… here today, gone tomorrow… no one really cares…. waiting for the winter air to rush on in…. hope the cold air will erase the past… too many … Continue reading

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One Lucky Girl

The NY Giants won…. Straight hair is around the corner…. I still can smile…. My sibling is a candidate for coward of the month….. He continues to emotionally and financially abuse my parents… I won’t give in….I’ll fight for them…. … Continue reading

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Ariana Grande and Pain?

I’m sitting in my favorite coffee pub pondering my goals for the day…. I try and have one goal and if I achieve ….I’m happy…. The sun is shining…..my hair is straight…..I’m feeling sorta skinny….I have no bills today and, … Continue reading

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Pretty and Helpless

it is hard to write again….dad will be 97 next Monday ….he is doing better than I… he is my magic….he makes me laugh and yet I’m scared of the inevitable… caregiving has taken away my confidence…I use to feel … Continue reading

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Bridgehampton Blues

waiting for a meeting in the hamptons… @ Starbucks ….my happy place…. everyone here is double 00… I can handle it……I’m in my happy zone… wonder what a double 00 would be like? can’t think about it…real problems in the … Continue reading

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