Bruce can save me – he has done it before. Life is a trip right now — when I look at the blue sky I want to see peace…I want to see beauty….now I only see what could be. I remember after I finished my cancer treatments 12 years ago, I was SO HAPPY….I SWORE NOTHING WOULD EVER BOTHER ME AGAIN, AND, YET I FEEL INTO THE TRAP.
I remember pulling over to the side of the road in NEW HAVEN…..I said a special prayer…I thanked god for his support and I cried as I realized my accomplishment. I did it..I SURVIVED…I made it through the sickness, the crying, the despair, yet, I never felt alone. I knew I was in a safe group – surrounded by those I love.
During those rough times I found a way to find happiness, relief, security — it was always through Bruce Springsteen…his music, his words, his dancing and his freedom. Bruce gave me the peace i couldn’t find on my own. I remember going to a concert at Madison Square Garden — I was still wearing a wig — I was so scared….”would I make it”….”would people notice”…did i care? Yet, i knew I had to go to that concert as a means to getting myself back on the road and to kick anxiety to the ground. Well, I did it with the support of my cousins — we went to MSG and with “Born to Run”…we were off and running…I was free. You really can’t understand unless you’ve experience Bruce…he just lets you run free…no matter what you look like, how much you weigh, how old you are and whatever problems you have….are left in reality.
BRUCE, I need you again…life has gotten tough for me.. I need the comfort of knowing it is going to be o.k. I want your freedom…I WANT PEACE. THOSE WHO LOVED ME IN THE PAST ARE MAKING IT HARD FOR ME TO UNDERSTAND HOW AND WHY THEY ARE TREATING THEIR FAMILY WITH SUCH DISDAIN. I DON’T WANT NEGATIVITY IN MY BODY — I ONLY WANT PEACE….BRUCE CAN BRING ME THE PEACE TO UNDERSTAND NEGATIVITY AND DEAL WITH IT.
“MO AND PUNTER” ARE HERO’S…they deserve beauty and peace at this point in their life….why must the cookie crumble now…we are trying to rescue them….someday I’ll tell the whole story. THEY JUST DESERVE WHAT IS THEIRS….
AS I SIT HERE WITH A CEMENT TON ON MY CHEST I SEEK BRUCE TO MAKE ME LAUGH SO THE TON WILL GO AWAY — I NEED TO ESCAPE REALITY FOR A BIT AND HOPE…HOPE FOR BEAUTY IN THOSE AROUND US.
IN THE DAY WE SWEAT IT OUT IN THE STREETS OF A RUNAWAY AMERICAN DREAM….