Guilt

thanks for the inspiration…

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 Food.  The very thought of eating something made me sick to my stomach.  Everyone around me, all my sweet family and friends, asking me the same question, “Can I get you something to eat?”  So much had changed in my life instantly, food somehow became not important.  Eating was a burden.  Eating had lost flavor.  Eating became my new enemy.

My life was in shambles and became impossible to put back together.  My daughter was gone and my life felt destroyed.  Not eating created a pain in me and that pain was exactly what I felt in my heart.  If I allowed myself the satisfaction of eating something substantial, it was like I was letting myself off the hook.  Emilie was gone and I wanted to feel that pain.  I wanted to feel it all because it didn’t seem fair if I didn’t.  It didn’t seem fair that I was…

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About sweetmelissa1954

Love family, life, Starbucks and change! Transition is the new norm....learning to go with the flow and embrace each day...I love politics, news and Bruce Springsteen! I write about life, Hawaii, coffee, sibling rivalry, politics, friends, care giving and just another day!
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